I rule

Right now the two most popular searches on Yahoo are Ellen Pompeo and Wizard of Oz. I think people are finally starting to realize it's all about me. :)

You did not say so

I admit it. I like my community college. Especially now since I'm working there. On Tuesdays and Thursdays because of work and school I'm there for eleven hours, so I get the benefit of being away from my family. I still get the college-ness of walking around campus, chillin out there- I'm thinking about maybe going to the student lounge one of these days. It feels like college. I was afraid is was just going to be like a second PHS-which is what a lot of people call it.

It's not though. And I love the freedom of it all I still get to come home to my guinea pig and my own room (and I don't do my own laundry which is a plus).

So, no, I don't get any crazy college parties, but who wants to get drunk and throw up anyway? I don't.

Run around 'til you're pooped out

I got two new jobs. It's weird because I've never had a real job or really done anything that does not include sitting on my butt, watching TV before.

The first one is at college. I'm a student aide for access and disability services. I have to make deliveries around campus, answer the phone, and do random "projects"- once I put papers in folders for hours and once I highlighted papers for hours. It's easy and really there's not a whole lot to do. I love it. I've meet two other students aides there too and they're really cool.

One of the student aides is so- amusing? She says she's shy, but she's also friendly and doesn't act shy at all. She has all these cute little "boy stories"- once she saw a guy in the building where we work and she was trying to avoid him because they had a class together last year and they would always "look at each other". She freaked out for days because she kept on seeing him there. And guys ask her out all the time (she's pretty) and she like doesn't get it. I said to her one time, "Well, maybe he asked you out because he likes you." and she said, "No, he doesn't like me. I don't know why he asked me out." It's just not what I would expect from a cheerleader.

My other job is kind of sucky. I work four days at college then the other three I spend at this place. I have to wake up early and it's confusing. Two strikes. That's all I'm gonna say about that. I'll give it a couple more weeks. I don't know. We'll see how things go.

Anyways, all this keeps me kind of busy. I haven't even been talking to my friends that much. But school is easy. I have enough time to do homework and I see my friend, DB, twice a week at school- it's nice to talk to her. I don't feel overwhelmed or stressed, yet I've been getting a lot of headaches and stomachaches. Hm.

PS. IT'S MY 100TH POST!!!

How do you get down from an elephant? You don't, you get down from a duck. How do you get out of an elephant? You run around 'til you're pooped out.

Cut the CRAP

Ever since my last class got out today, I've wanted to swear a lot. The teacher of my last class (philosophy) has swears incorporated into his everyday language. I mean, he FUCKING swears the SHIT out of everything! I had to remind myself that I don't talk like that (usually).

I'm really nervous about starting my first job. I feel like it has taken so much for me not to be so F-ing shy (sorry, residual) and I'm sick of keeping it up. It's ridiculous because I can't live my life like that. But it's hard to be something you're not. And it's key when the things you're not, i.e friendly and hardworking, are important in the real world.

Ever since my Bff's have gone away, I feel like I have to watch what I say because I don't want to hurt them. And things have been a bit too warm and gooey. It's unnatural. I can't say that I know what it's like to leave your friends and family and I'm sure it has been emotional, but I want to be able to insult them and tell them what I really think. Because that's what best friend's are for. Did you guys notice that too or is it just me? Well, talking to them online today, I tried to get back into that.

Love found

Finally I reconnect with you.
Slender and silver
you shimmer in my eyes

I run my fingers
along your smooth surface
just to remember the feel

Then we start.
I touch my lips to you
and blow.

It's hard
For months we went without
But my mouth on you
is bliss

Deep and moaning.
I feel your low vibrations
resonate through my skin

Tightening my lips
I make you shriek
tone it down
to sweet melody

You sing with every breath I give
I get lost in your sounds

I love being with you because
together we make music.

My flute.



by RS, inspired by this from last year (click link)