All gone

RIP Ozzie

Ozzie you were such a lovable pig, even though you were smelly. I'm going to miss you a lot. I was looking forward to spending spring break with you, but hopefully now you are with Elmer and Wilbur in guinea pig heaven. I love you. 

Ozzie M.

2007-2012

If that's wrong then I don't want to be right

But it makes me feel good, so technically, I do it anyway! 

This is why you can't get a job at YouTube. But don't worry, looks like they've got things covered!

I don't know why the internet hates me recently. Maybe it thinks I'm too needy because I never leave it alone. It's just that, you know, it makes me so happy and I can't imagine my life without it. 

Guinea pigs are the reason for my existence

In my companion animal class today, we spent about three minutes talking about guinea pigs. It was the best three minutes of my life. Except when my professor said that guinea pigs weren't cuddly. He even had this on his power point. When he said this, I spent about two milliseconds trying to keep my face under control, but I couldn't do it and I just let my face go into probably the best "What the fuck??" face I've ever made. Now- my professor saw my facial expression, pointed to me, and announced to the whole class that I had made a face. Which was kind of embarrassing, I'm not gonna lie. But how dare he say guinea pigs are not cuddly! Screw his DVM PhD! If there's one thing I know about it's guinea pigs and I know they are very cuddly! That's a big reason of why I love them so much. There's nothing better than than that plump rodent resting his head on your shoulder. Guinea pigs rock. A friend of mine was pulling up YouTube videos of guinea pigs yesterday. They were so cute; I wanted to cry. I miss my guinea pigs so much. I am seriously going through guinea pig withdrawal. I need some guinea pigs, stat.

Alternate Gloria would have bigger boobs

Just watched another amazing episode of Grey's Anatomy. I feel like I've been through a lot with that show. From the first episode that I saw I fell in love with it. But after sometime the show had started to bother me. I was pissed at all the actor/character changes and repetitive and far-fetched plot lines. However after watching those episodes which I hated at first, a second time, I realized they were still everything I loved about that show.

So a few days ago I saw that this week's episode was going to be an "alternate reality" episode. My first thought was that this was stupid. The writers must just be killing time to make the show go on longer. I thought it would a waste of time to watch. But then I saw the preview, and you can't help but want to know what goes on in a world where Meredith's Person is April, not Christina; where Lexie is a druggie instead of a doctor; where Percy was never killed; and where everyone is romantically involved with someone else.  And not only was this episode extremely interesting, but it was also a good look on character development as we got to see deeper into all of them. Because what I realized as I was watching, was that everyone is focused on that they are the person they are because of things that have happened to them and what they have done, but what has just as much impact are things that didn't happen or what could have happened.

I'm not saying that we should be regretful and dwelling. Rather we should use those experiences to learn and make better decisions to live the lives we want. Although in contrast to the episode's overall theme of fate, Alex and Bailey point out that "we create our own destiny." That's what I believe. And although I don't always do that, if there's something I want, like Alex, I believe in doing what you can to get it. Don't just let things happen to you. Because if you do, you will feel like shit.

By the end of the show it's clear the writers want you to know that where the characters are in their lives right now is where they should be. I'm glad they did this because often times when we watch our favorite TV shows we can't help but exclaim "Why did they [the writers] do that to them [the characters]?!" And it makes you wonder what you would think if you could watch an alternate reality of your own life. I think we often wonder about that, at least I do, but we don't always think it through. We do "what ifs." What if I didn't go to college, what if I drop out right now? What if I didn't treat this person like that, what if I go make things better right now? And by doing this we try to look into our own pasts and futures. The truth is though, that you can't undo things you've done and you can't know what's going to happen in the future. We can't have that deeper understanding of our own character development because there isn't someone sitting at a desk in sunny California with a pen determining what's going to happen to us. We have to do that ourselves.

So if you want to be happy then do what makes you happy. Don't worry about "what ifs." When we were little my friend, Timmy, used to do that all the time, "What if there's a earthquake, what if we die?" And we eventually got kind of annoyed with this habit "Timmy, there's not going to be an earthquake. And if there is you aren't going to die!" No point in worrying about those things. I'm not saying don't be prepared, by all means little Timmy make yourself and earthquake emergency kit, but don't let the fear of earthquakes get into your everyday life and ruin your present life with worry.

It's like my mom said yesterday when we were discussing relationships, "Seize the day means enjoy each other's love TODAY. Thank God for it. Even if you never have another great day with him, you will always remember the love and be thankful for it...Everyday your Dad and I count our blessings together. Even if they are a little stupid (roof over our heads, love our kids, heater is working). When I was dating your Dad, everyday I thought to myself. 'If I NEVER see him again, at least I had _____ time with him. So I am very lucky' I swear to God I did this everyday"