Keepin it real

About an hour and a half ago, I was in tears. I had just realized I forgot to turn in a homework assignment that was due exactly four minutes earlier, that I had spent two hours working on yesterday. Immediately after that I went to do my physics pre-lab quiz. I looked at the questions, realized I didn't know how to do any of them, then looked for instructions on how to do those problems- couldn't find that either. The following moment went something like this:

"WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE!!! I SUCK AT SCIENCE AND MATH WHY THE F*** AM I MAJORING IN IT! I'M GOING TO CHANGE MY MAJOR TO ENGLISH AND I DON'T CARE WHAT MY PARENTS SAY! I AM SICK OF ALL THIS SCIENCE! I'VE NEVER LIKE SCIENCE ANYWAY! I'VE JUST BEEN LYING TO MYSELF ALL THESE YEARS!!"

And in the spirit of not overreacting, I then looked up how to change my major, if there was any chance at getting a tuition refund at this point in the semester (there's not), and contemplated the possibilities of dropping out of school- you know, whether or not I would have to live on the street to be considered a total failure or just my parents house for the rest of my life.

So, if you're wondering how all of this turned out, I passed my pre-lab with a 67% (you only have to get 50%-I know overachiever, right?) and I did that by guessing random numbers. I can't believe that strategy actually worked, but it did, I'm just cool like that. And I figured, with all of the money I've spent (in loans) already, I better keep going with this science thing, at least for this semester.